Words by Jessica Tobin
You gave me nothing
There’s nothing to say you existed
That you cared for
Or ever thought of me
A book
And a scarab
And a note in the snow
Where my name is
And a song
I love you
They all say so
All evidence for you
And I have nothing
Aside from this near constant ache
So much
So very close
But never enough to touch
Scheme
Seem to know everything I need
Bleed
Yellow
Blue
For you
The weight of things unspoken unsaid
The pain from the love that’s only in my head
My feelings for you have nothing to do with you
You are not the man I am in love with
You do not exist
I’ve seen you before
He was you before you were
My heart breaks a little every time I think of you
But I soldier on
A scarlet faced fever dream
Vacate my conscious thoughts
Vacate my unconscious thoughts
